Sudden decision to move to Blogspot. Probably because I was feeling too lonely on Xanga! Well anyway, future posts will be here. For the time being, a list of my older posts is below.
Sunday, May 13, 2007
Sunday, May 13, 2007
I'm going to Sikkim. For a week. Don't ask me why - wasn't my idea. So anyway, I'll be back next Sunday. Till then, best of luck for my fellow sufferers - may ISC be just as you wanted it to be. And if it isn't, don't worry - I'm with you, mate! Cheerio, The Mindbender | |
Thursday, May 10, 2007
It's not a suicidal article, that's all I'll say! | |
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
Not really much into depressing articles...will try and make sense with the next one. Promise! | |
, | Lost...My life has turned upside down, and I must say I hadn't expected this. Not now. Has it hit me yet? I really don't know. Maybe about now I should be looking for a way out, a way to move on. That's what they all say - "It's ok. You'll survive." Only I can't. I won't survive, not like this.So now I'm looking for a reason. A reason why this had to happen. That hasn't helped either, though. When you love someone so much, and she loves you just as much as you do, you don't expect to be told "Oh, but it was going to happen anyway..." And so, I think, and I think, and I think. And then I just feel even more suicidal, so I stop thinking. And then I feel lost. And then I can't take that anymore, so i start thinking again. There's this empty feeling somewhere inside me, a void that refuses to leave. Because no matter how much you deny it, I will always believe that this was my fault. Maybe it's a matter of convenience - maybe I would much rather have someone to hate, even if it is myself. Somehow I need to channel this despair. Somehow I need to get through this. And just in case I never get to tell you again, I love you. I really really love you. For all that's worth. Monday, May 07, 2007
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